any tips on running away chat? i can't deal with this shit anymore but i can't kill myself. i don't know what to do, and i'm too weak to just keep going on like this. i don't wanna have to struggle anymore. i never wanted to in the first place. i'm supposed to be happy, aren't i? this wasn't supposed to happen.

i'm scared to run away because i know i can't carry everything i have, even though i'm attached to it. but i still don't want to be here.

i can't just report to dcf again because she'll just lie again. and nothing will happen. again.