I KEEP FORGETTING TO POST HERE CECRVTNHNHVXVS

i should draw captain hero and zapp brannigan as that one meme drawing template of the two guys full on sloppy making out style

my spanky ham glitter gif is the first thing you see on the drawn together tag on tumblr rn!!!!

what makes it even cooler is that yesterday i got jumpscard by the same glitter gif while looking for a gif of spanky ham to put in an ask to my mutual about how i think spanky ham kins terezi pyrope from homestuck!!!

this is how i know i've "made it" as a tumblr user because i got jumpscard by my own glitter gif TWICE in the SAME WEEK!!!!

https://www.tumblr.com/benatars-slut/754595162130366464/lammy-babysits-from-time-to-time-when-ccmo-and?source=share <== on my tumblr

i wish i could believe the positive things people say to cheer me up. i really do. but everything i ever do never goes the way it does in my head. every time i get better physically or emotionally, i always end up back here. weak, pale, scrawny, and in pain. i cry endlessly over things that will never matter. i get obsessed with everything too quickly, but i always end up feeling forgotten and replaceable. maybe i'm supposed to feel like this. a corpse, forced to stay alive by the cruel gods, for nothing but their entertainment. i feel like i should have put down in my sleep like an old, pathetic dog sooner. i wish i could just be better. but nothing ever works out. nothing sticks. nobody seems to actually notice, or care. i just want it all to be over. if i can't be okay, i'd be better off dead. but i just can't. and yet the irony of it all. i hate everything about my pathetic little atom of a life, but i'm afraid of death at the same time. why must i be so painfully bitter. i'm sorry to spill out my sludge-filled soul to nobody, but i had to get something out of me. somehow.

if i had any actual talent with anatomy and/or drawing characters that aren't mine i'd draw DioBerg (Dio x Zoidberg) fanart but unfortunately i have zero self-confidence and zero chance of not fucking it up a million times and immediately giving up lmao. but yeah, it's the new otp :P

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